About Me

2.11.11

Trauma and sustanence

Little did i know, that helping some one could really be a pain in the ass. For the past two weeks I have had some of the worst experiences in my life. Shut up in my hostel room, seeing no mates, going out for the occasional meals to the canteen, getting to Kolan's for a smoke , frequent visits to the lavatory are all that i seem to do these days. Oh! wait that isn't all there is someone, biting me from behind, nagging me to reek my brain and spill out bloody business concepts in modified English.  For humanity's sake leave me alone. Y did I ever agree to help in doing this rubbish? Wouldn't it have been better if someone else was made to carry all this sin? But sadly that's not all, in addition to all the help you offer you still remain the despicable speck of filth in front of the party and have to fall prey to all the spite and bad remarks from that side. So it is little wonder that i should state this that I do not believe having done so much sin in my life to deserve this, and so I say enough is enough. It is nothing more than saddism, if u know what I mean, to torture a poor sole to such an extend that he should wish for bitter death more than anything else in this world. Though fights are not a rarity between us two, rather it would be more appropriate if I said peace was a rarity among us, this has gone far beyond the levels of the normal petty fights and stuff we used to have on a normal day. But what really blows me off is the fact that it is the eleventh hour and the party is more into resolving the clueless banal crisis between us two than evincing any sort of interest in wanting to complete the project on time and hand it over to the university. It is at this sort of keen desire the party shows in matters concerning us both, that I bow my head in reverence. It seems like moving on with the relation at any cost was the prime focus and all else subsidiary. Needless to say my claims for a "rupture and a redoubling", to quote Derrida, in the relation are vetoed unopposed and I'm back to being the original, meek self that I am. It is truce for the time being and all is kisses between us two, but for how long and that is the real question.


 this is a picture of me performing in the street play for pratheeksha. behind me is Sudheesh in suites. thought this would be a suitable picture for the entry
 

...err wait a moment. The party is intending on taking up PhD. I am so Dead...